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A new release – Prowl (Book 3 in the Pride Riders Series)

It’s here. It took me a while but I got ‘er done. Prowl is on Amazon. It’s Ari’s turn to feel the heat of mating.

Prowl-fullBlurb ~

What’s a cheetah to do?
Aristotle Kuhne laughed as he watched his brother’s succumb to matings. Now it’s his turn to feel the desire only the other half of his soul can evoke. His family knows him as the fun loving comedian. Everyone is going to find out just how deadly he can be when it comes to the woman who hold his heart.
Bane Uduru was hired to do a job. She never expected to run into the one man that could stop her. She knew his claims that he was her mate were lies but the fun was in proving him wrong. After all, she was a honey badger and they really gave less than a damn about the emotions of others.

What Am I Doing?

“What am I doing…”

I ask that question a lot lately, and for whatever reason I’ve gotten stuck in the pattern of answering it with Drake lyrics. There’s a lot of stuff in this business that will make you feel like you have a case of the Mondays everyday, and it will make you ask why you even bother.

“What am I doing?”

I ask myself that when I hand out ARCs no one reads. I ask that when I get passed over for NYT bestselling so-and-so. I ask that when I stare at a blinking cursor taunting me with my potential yet unfulfilled. I ask that when someone expects to read one thing from me and gets another.

And what’s my answer?

“Oh yeah, that’s right, I’m doing me.”

It’s what I say to myself when I ask why I’m being professional in the face of unprofessionalism. It’s what I say when people expect me to write the same book over and over because they liked my first one. It’s what I say when people expect the next book to be better and different because the last one sucked in their opinion. It’s what I say when people wave me off.

I’m doing me. And what else could I expect from myself but the best I have to offer as ME. I never set out to be the most commercial of commercial successes. I published my work mostly by accident, and I wrote the stories I did because I wanted to read them. Everything else is supposed to be a cherry on top, but sometimes those cherries are so sour you ask yourself what you’re doing. What’s the point? You can’t make everyone happy, you can’t make everyone treat you the way they would treat an NYT bestseller. So what can I do?

“What am I doing?”

I’m writing. I’m writing for me and sharing with people in the hopes they will like it. I’m keeping track of the people who do what they say they’ll do, regardless of if I’m on someone’s list. I’m staying grateful for those that like my work and tell me so, for those that show support and put the word out there. I’m grateful I have plenty of stories in me to write, and I’m going to put them all out there. I’m carving out a place for myself and doing me, getting better, and reminding myself that I’m doing what makes me happy. I’m doing me.

“And this what I’ma do till it’s over. Till it’s over.

But it’s far from over…”

The End Challenge

I recently joined Romance Writers of America. Unfortunately, I haven’t had the time to really investigate all it has to offer but I was able to find a critique partner so that’s a plus right there.

Photo by Onderwijsgek. Used under the Creative Commons Attribution- Share Alike.

Photo by Onderwijsgek. Used under the Creative Commons Attribution- Share Alike.

I also attended a chapter meeting and got some great ideas. It was at the meeting that I learned about The End Challenge. It’s a little like NaNoWriMo except you have a year to complete and it doesn’t have to be 50,000 words. You pick your word count and commit to having it completed by the end of the year.

While I found this to be motivational and quickly signed myself up, several writers in the meeting seemed a little miffed about it. They believe that this will soon become a requirement for membership. One writer even saw it as a way to keep non-fulltime writers out of the organization.

I don’t know enough yet to respond but it is interesting. Could this tool be used to exclude those who haven’t finished a project? Or is as I imagine – a tool to motivate and evaluate?  If I can’t finish this 30,000 word project in a year then it is time to evaluate why? It is time management or is my heart just not into it anymore?

I love a good conspiracy theory so I laughed along with a writer who said that the RWA wasn’t going to require Nora Roberts to complete The End Challenge. Probably not, but she’ll get a book out anyway.

For those who’ve been in the RWA for a while, let me know what you think about The End Challenge???

Damn the Man. Save the Empire. What Loving a Cult Classic Taught Me

Stop thinking about art works as objects, and start thinking about them as triggers for experiences. That solves a lot of problems. Art is something that happens, a process, not a quality, and all sorts of things can make it happen … [W]hat makes a work of art ‘good’ for you is not something that is already ‘inside’ it, but something that happens inside you. ~ Brian Eno

I was mulling over this quote, and while I find that every “this is what writing/art is” quote lacks something, I’ve determined that I like it. I like that it treats the process of creating and taking in a creation as something that is neither right nor wrong. It’s wholly personal and yet we share it with each other. Even if others agree, at the end of the day it’s all about the process of taking in or discarding something we were engaged with. We have our individual criteria for what makes a piece of art successful, right, good, and in the end, even if it’s none of those things we can still love it.

A funny parallel came up when I was trying to find something to write about for this post. This article about Empire Records, it’s influence, and it’s 20th anniversary came up on my Tumblr and hit me right in the heart.

How Empire Records Became the Unlikely Film of a Generation

Empire Records is one of my favorite films. It is by no means perfect. It was a box office flop, it has the same narrow lens that The Breakfast Club did (one put upon adult and a bunch of teenagers with baggage), and some of its music is better known than the film itself. And yet I know every word. I love it and when it comes on, I don’t care if it’s the opening credits or the final shot on the rooftop, I will stay there and relive a piece of myself until it fades to black.

Funny thing is, I’m not alone. Despite it’s inability to snare its target audience in a theater in 1995, Empire Records just celebrated its 20th anniversary with a big screening in L.A.

So how does a box office flop, one that director Allan Moyle once thought was the biggest failure of his career, become a cult classic that people all over the world love?

Who knows? Maybe it was all the love poured into it by the cast, that rag tag group that would go on to be stars in their own right, or recognizable faces on our TV screens. Maybe it was because it was an experience like no other for them in their young lives, and that made it authentic all these years later in every scene. Maybe it was time. Some art doesn’t work despite budget, talent, great music and hard work without that extra ingredient we can’t control.

What I do know is that Moyle had no idea what an impact the movie had until his cast told him he should see it at that screening 20 years later. The man who wrote off his own film as a failure, ended up saying, to quote the article, it was “the premiere Empire Records never had”. He got to see how much people loved that movie, how they knew all the words and all the songs, and how they danced to the final scene for the thousandth time, dressed up like the characters. He got to see them experience the film he loved, right, wrong, flop, success. In that moment it was all of those things and none. It was something thousands of people loved enough to share in the experience of celebrating. They were happy it existed. A failure, and yet a bright shining success.

It’s just a movie about teenagers and a record store manager fighting the inevitable tide of corporate greed. Rather inconsequential in the grand scheme of life. It was supposed to make money in the theater. It didn’t. But it did endure, and I suppose that’s the thing I took away from the quote, from the article and from my love of things considered “failures”. I suppose it’s what soothes me when the slings and arrows of bad reviews and low sales strike me.

It’s not about the right or wrong. It’s not about good or bad. We hope it’s the former and not the latter. We strive for good, we hope we’re doing this right. We put our all into it. Then we let it go. It’s about the experience, ours in creating it, and the audience’s, who will do with our work whatever they wish. Sometimes we can’t control anything but the joy of being in the moment and making something bigger than ourselves. Sometimes we just have to sit back, love something, and let time do the rest.

Damn the man. Save the Empire.

Luscious Feature: Jamallah Bergman-The Lady of Gladstone Manor

Another new release and we’ve got it here!  Author Jamallah Bergman has a new one out called “The Lady of Gladstone Manor”.  I haven’t had the pleasure of reading this yet, but judging by the cover, it looks very mysterious!

Title:  The Lady of Gladstone Manor

Author:  Jamallah Bergman

Genre: Interracial Romance: The heroine is bi-racial (Black/White) and the hero is White.

Length: 111 pages

Blurb:

Jackson Belle, the son of a prominent family of landscapers and architects whose work has been the “Showcase of the South”, goes to take what he thinks is a routine job for his father who is soon in bed after a fall. He soon finds himself going to Gladstone Manor, a home well known in town as a house that once would host grand balls and parties for the town. But is nothing more than a shell of its former glorious self. Soon Jackson finds himself diving deep within the mystery of Gladstone Manor and its owner Brooke Langley.

Brooke Langley’s life at Gladstone Manor at one time was wonderful and she enjoyed the many memories she had as a child, watching the many people coming to the parties and balls that her parents would give. But a tragic accident leaves Brooke in seclusion, afraid of what the world outside of the Manor would think of her now. It isn’t until Jackson Belle comes into her life and shows her that someone does care that slowly starts to come out to the world and soon finds true love as well.

Excerpt: 

“Let me ask you this, do you remember Mr. Langley’s daughter?”

“You mean, Brooke,” Jackson’s mother interjected as she came in with a tray holding Howard’s lunch.

“Brooke, that’s her name, right?”

“Oh yes, I remember Brooke, she was such a sweet child. Always smiling and making everybody around her laugh. Such a beautiful child with so much life in her until that evil woman of a stepmother messed her up. I remember Walter was so heartbroken by what happened. He knew they didn’t get along because they were like oil and water, they just didn’t mix well. She hated Brooke because she was the apple of Walter’s eye and a constant reminder of her late mother. She got more of his attention and her stepmother hated her with a passion because of that. When she had the accident, her father had her going to all kinds of doctors and surgeons, even sent her to Europe to see a specialist who dealt with people in her situation. After Walter died, she stayed in Europe for the longest time. Some people thought that she had passed away but then one day, word got out that groceries and other things were being delivered to the Manor.” She stared at the photo of Brooke by the fountain.

That entire day while at his father’s, they both worked on the plans for the garden. He would go from his father’s work area to his father’s bedroom to see what he thought of the plans so far.

“Sweetheart, you have a phone call. I think it’s from the Manor,” Nancy said, popping her head in the room while Jackson drew on the blueprint.

Picking up the phone, Jackson said, “Hello.”

“Hello, Mr. Belle, this is Brooke Langley calling,” a soft, mellow voice said on the other end.

“Hello, Ms. Langley, it’s nice to finally hear from you. How are you?”

“Fine, thank you, I talked with Nora and I just wanted to see what your point of view on the condition of the garden.”

“Well, I will tell you that it needs plenty of work but it’s a job that I look forward to starting. I am always up for a challenge. I told Nora I wanted you to make a list of things you might want to see in your garden. Have you started yet?”

“Yes, I have. I was trying to go by memory, but there’s plenty I want to add. I have to say I’m pretty excited that this is being done. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen the garden the way it was before.”

Her voice entranced Jackson. “I can come get the list from you if you want. That way, I can show you what I have so far.” Jackson replied, hoping she would agree to meet in person.

At first, he heard nothing and thought that maybe she hung up the phone. “Hello? Are you there, Ms. Langley?”

“Yes, I’m still here. I don’t think it would be a good idea to meet just yet. I can have Nora give you the list when you get here, if that’s all right?”

“That would be just fine, Ms. Langley. But I do hope to get the chance to actually see you one of these days, face to face.”

“Take care, Mr. Belle.” She hung up.

The conversation left Jackson with a sense of accomplishment in what he’d done so far. Also, he felt curious, wondering who the woman behind the voice was.

Buy links:
Amazon US: http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00VPPXAD8
Amazon UK: http://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B00VPPXAD8…
Kobo: https://store.kobobooks.com/…/e…/the-lady-of-gladstone-manor

Connect with Jamallah:
Facebook Author Page
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Amazon Author Page
Barnes and Noble Author Page

The Teacher’s Heart

Everything comes to an end. Bittersweet as it is The Growing Strong Series is coming to an end this month with Mandy finding love… or fighting it.

Blurb

There’s no way Amanda Butler would ever let herself get attached to anyone. Sure, sex is fun, but love is for suckers. Her parents taught her that. She has her friends, a job she loves, and lots of fun flings. Everything she thinks she wants.

Ashton Gilmore is at a crossroads when he meets Amanda. She’s every thing he’s ever wanted in a real relationship, but she might have too much baggage for even this hot political fixer handle.

Ashton has to find a way to teach Mandy that love exists, before she gives up on the concept all together.

Excerpt-Warning Adult language

The last thing Ashton Gilmore expected to see at his door last night was Mandy. Sure they’d been sleeping together for the past few months, but she had made it more than clear it was more out of boredom than actual attraction. He thought he knew better. She was a mystery to him.

If he thought last night was a surprise, this morning was downright monumental. Curled into his arms, with her head resting on his chest, lay the dark haired beauty. Deep mahogany hair verging on black cascaded across a pillow, and he missed her hazel eyes with their brown speckles. Learning the origin of the eyes made the secrets and lies he’d been living with seem like child’s play.

Tapping the volume button on the remote, he tried to focus on the commentator. He had been reading the subtitles, but the sun crept across his room and highlighted Mandy’s hips, and then chest. By the time the rays reflected off the smooth skin of her neck, he’d been entranced. Sadly, a flash on the screen of Karen made him refocus and reengage.

Mandy stirred, but stayed asleep. Even in her slumber her fingertips were so gentle and delicate it took everything in him to not squirm from the sensation…and he had lift off. Not a bad thing considering what had taken place the night before. Hell, the only bad thing about last night was that it had been so good, he worried he may have peaked. Maybe it was all downhill from here. Mandy’s leg wrapped around his hip and she woke suddenly.

“Oh shit,” she said as she quickly uncurled, leaving him cold and searching. “Fuck. Fuck. Triple fuck…what time is it?”

“Seven…” he craned his neck to see the digital display on his clock. “Sixteen.”

“Mother trucker.” Her quick switch into appropriate swear words always made him smile.

“What’s the matter?”

“I have work,” she balked. “I’m a teacher. Getting there before the kids is advised.”

“Jesus, I just realized I fucked a kindergarten teacher. Totally forgot to scratch that off my list.”

“Funny, jack hole.” She scrambled into the kitchen, and he swung his legs around to follow her. The closest thing to the bed were a pair of sweatpants, which he threw on and then followed her. “You’re a damn genius. Plus, I’m not a kindergarten teacher.”

Stomping her shoe on, she bent back to pull out the back of it. Her fingers tangled through her hair and she rushed to his bathroom.

“Magilla, how do you not have a brush?” she spat. “Seriously I don’t buy that windblown shit.”

Ashton used his index finger to open the top drawer. Mandy glared at him as she retrieved the brush and violently pulled it through her hair.

“Time?” she snapped. He leaned back to look in his bedroom.

“Seven nineteen.”

“Shit. Shit. Triple shit.”

“How late are you?” he asked as he scratched his belly.

“Are you kidding me?” she pointed the brush at his crotch. “You seriously think I have time to fuck you?”

He hadn’t thought about that, having dropped to half mast after the scramble and blur that was Mandy’s usual morning routine. He just wanted to know why she was in a panic. Everyone was late once in a while, and wasn’t she part owner of the school anyway? A fancy private one no less.

“I had an itch.”

“And I’m the only one who can scratch it…yeah, yeah. I’ve heard it all before.”

“That’s a horrible line. I have much better ones.”

Mandy scoffed. “I forgot you’re a master.”

“I’m not a twelve-year-old boy.”

“I tend to stay away from felonies.” She pushed past him and toward the counter to grab her keys. “I assume you don’t.”

“Boys aren’t really my style.”

“I meant twelve-year-olds.”

Ashton sighed and leaned on his counter. He knew he’d be going through this routine again someday, even though Mandy had sworn this would be the last time. Just like last time and the time before that.

“Do I get a kiss goodbye?” he yawned.

“Don’t let me keep you awake. Don’t you have a job to do?”

“Yes.”

“Then why are you sitting here?”

“I’m getting ready. I’ve been working for the past three hours.”

Mandy stood in the doorway shifting from one side to the other before taking off and leaving Ashton confused as usual. Returning to his room, he pulled out a suit and continued watching the talking heads. Conservatives didn’t know what to do. Karen Schroeder was their best bet to win the congressional seat in the fifth district, but coming out had thrown the religious right into a tailspin.

GSSFBPromo

The Dreaded Second Draft

Photo by yarruta; canstockphoto.com

Photo by yarruta; canstockphoto.com

It’s Spring and I find myself with a first draft.

This week, I’ll be moving forward to the second draft.

For most writers, the second draft will involve cutting the excess and making sure everything flows.

Not me, my second draft will involve adding. I write in scenes where one doesn’t necessarily flow into the next but the story gets told. In the next phase, I’ll set the backdrops. Everything from the setting to the backstory to the transition will get added in. There’ll also have to be some fact checking done in this stage – consult a few sources just to make sure about flight schedules and whether or not a certain flower grows at a certain time.

It’s not the fun part for me and unfortunately, it is happening at my favorite time of the year.

I love opening the windows and feeling the slightly warmed air. I actually spent an hour on my back porch with a glass of soda just listening to music. I would have stayed longer if one of my kiddoes hadn’t demanded lunch.

So in the midst of Spring, I’ll be locked up in a room with my laptop and the window closed. I can’t afford to be distracted because it’s been too long since I’ve completed any work. I’ll enjoy Spring with my characters and hopefully in a few months, you will too.

Happy Spring Everyone!

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